"Crazy people made him crazy. It was as if he personally resented them giving into madness - in part, because he so frequently labored to behave sanely. When some people gave up on the labor of sanity, or failed at it, Garp suspected them of not trying hard enough."
- John Irving (The World According to Garp)

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Addendum to today's earlier post, or the scary red tank top

The more I think about it, the more I believe that I felt particularly unattractive today due to the top I was wearing. It just wasn't very flattering. I'd love to be healthier than I am now, but if I do it while basically staying the same size, I could live with it.

I just need to be wary of red tank tops (unless they are worn as a layering piece).

On the positive side, after the day I had, I ate a very healthy dinner and went to the gym. I felt good. I felt like I cared about myself again. I felt like the old me who thought about what she put in her body.

So that's it. I don't know what it is, exactly. I want to be less obsessed with this, and I don't want a scary picture of me in a red tank top to ruin my whole day.

2 comments:

  1. Scary pictures aside, I'm glad the day took a turn for the better with you attitude about yourself. It isn't easy somedays because we're always our own worst critic.

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  2. Well, I have to remember that my body is just fine as it is. I just need to choose clothing better, choose things that make me feel fabulous. The red tank top did not make me feel fabulous. When I saw the pictures everywhere I just went "ugh."

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