The more I think about it, the more I believe that I felt particularly unattractive today due to the top I was wearing. It just wasn't very flattering. I'd love to be healthier than I am now, but if I do it while basically staying the same size, I could live with it.
I just need to be wary of red tank tops (unless they are worn as a layering piece).
On the positive side, after the day I had, I ate a very healthy dinner and went to the gym. I felt good. I felt like I cared about myself again. I felt like the old me who thought about what she put in her body.
So that's it. I don't know what it is, exactly. I want to be less obsessed with this, and I don't want a scary picture of me in a red tank top to ruin my whole day.